Baggage Claim

Life is a continuous journey of growing and refining who we are. There are hills and curves as we change, transform, and let go of everything that isn’t really us. A little over a year ago, through meditation and prayer, I very clearly saw a bright yellow sign that said “Curve Ahead”. My first instinct was to whine, “When am I going to get the straight, smooth path, come on Universe!” I know my spirit guides were rolling their eyes at me, like girl you want our help to reach your dreams or not!?!?!  I struggled with the concept at first, but was shown I was ready for change. I asked for more guidance and suddenly, there was a spotlight on the chaos surrounding me. My light and energy were being drained by it. I threw my hands in the air and said, ” Fine, lets do it. If you have something better in store for me, lets go.” I’m not a very patience person, so of course I wanted this curve/change/transformation to happen overnight. It didn’t and yes, I get frustrated, but when I see all the puzzle pieces fall into place, I know divine timing has made it all worth it. I’m learning to embrace the detours and uncertainty because it’s so much more than I could ever expect.

Fast forward to recently, yet more curves and new beginnings. I’ve been struggling to sleep, there’s this fast paced, exciting energy surrounding me, making it difficult to quite my mind. There were doors I needed to let close and patiently await new doors to open. At 1 am I felt the need to get up, meditate, and listen to my guidance. As I’m meditating I hear a whisper, “It’s time.” Ok…….time for what? Not much is happening at 1 am!

“Time to visit your baggage claim.” Ha! Are you kidding me!? This is what you wanted me awake for!?! I sealed those boxes of “extra baggage” years ago, what else do you want?? That’s exactly what I had done, instead of submerging myself and dealing with those emotions and experiences, I had sealed the boxes and stored them in the back of my subconscious. I’d done hypnosis, which I found helpful, but it only scratched the surface of what I needed to do. Over the years, something would trigger a memory and slowly rip the seal away from the box, bringing it back to the surface. I was still progressing forward, but as you can imagine, it was difficult lugging all that extra baggage with me. Now, was the time to sift through all this baggage and put it away or let it go.

My baggage claim was dark, stale, and musty. All things that don’t appeal to my senses and something I definitely didn’t want to do at 1 am. This has by far been the most difficult thing I’ve had to do on my journey, face my emotions and memories head on. Like ripping a bandaid off, I discovered unsealing the boxes were best done quickly. With my spirit guides support, we went through ALL the boxes. I let go and burned the judgement, fear, worry, anger, resentment, guilt, pain, trauma, sadness, frustration, anxiety, and shame. I let the compliments, support, love, joy, kindness, and happiness float to the surface. If that sounded easy, it was anything but. As this was happening I physically felt sweaty, dizzy, nauseous, tingling, ugly crying, basically a hot mess!  But, every box I went through, more light and air started to circulate. It felt easier to breath and I felt lighter. Those emotions and baggage no longer had the power to hold me back because it was now nonexistent. I want to shout from the top of a mountain, it feels GOOD!

Working though my “baggage claim” SUCKED, for lack of a more eloquent word. Opening those boxes was the worst, but facing it head on and plowing through rather than avoiding or stuffing it in the back is freeing. It’s something everyone has the opportunity to experience. You’re never alone on your journey and far stronger then you give yourself credit for. Let your baggage go and lets SOAR together!!